16th december 2009 2:27am

im just constantly full of emptiness, numbness, sadness

its all crazy madness

too many tears i have cried

inside i feel like i have died

but its alive

somethings growing

and my emotions are furiously flowing

my eyes are always bloodshot

from all the tear filled cries i have forgot

so many tears i have cried

they have just simply run dry

and i have been left with a burning pain

i feel like im going insane

so many thoughts run through my brain

causing me so much strain

having sleepless nights

searching a million web sites

to find out my rights

and to gain help and advice

but its all making me sad

stomach pains so bad

that nights can become a living hell

all i want to do is yell

but i feel all alone

there are thing i wish i had done differently and had previously known

but now this is it

it scars me a bit

it hurts inside lots

but i can not give up, i just can not

even if im full of stress

cause i was stupid enough to get into this mess

an now ive got to be brave enough to work my way through

and ive got to trust myself and be true

and not just for my self but mostly for this little person growing inside of me

i know iv got to let thing run free

let nature take its course

but i feel like iv got to do more

its all just a little bit funny

but i have no money

and nowhere real to live

and i don't have much to give

but hopefully i'll cope

and hopefully soon i'll gain hope