Sexual Abuse

She was 10. She didn't understand. She could feel it was wrong. But she was scared. It ruened her life. She blamed her self. She felt sick and dirty.

At the age of 10 an innocent girl was sexualy abused in her granmother house, by her 28 year old cousin. At first she declined and did't want to take any part because she could feel there wasn't something wrigt about it. He made he feel guilty like she had done something bad by saying 'no'. So she agreed. He touched he in places and ways that she could have never imagined at such a young age. It made her feel sick. He would kiss her and she'd feel dirty. He told her it was 'because I love you' and he also told he that 'it's our little secret'. She was confuses. 'How can he love me if he's hurting me' she'd think. This loud, confident, bubbly little girl lost all her confidents. She started to clam up around people and wouldnt saying a thing because she was in to much pain.

The abuse lasted for a few months. She didn't tell any one whilst it happened, except her mum. She said to her 'I don't want to play any more because ****** is hurting me' her mum replyed 'don't be silly why would he hurt you?'. Se never told any one from her family ever again because she thougt they may not believe her or wat they will think of her and also because she didn't want to start up family any feuds.

Even long after the abuse had stopped the girl never stop tinking about it. She would have nigtmears, this made her not want to go to sleep. She started self harming, isolated her self, and stoped talking to her family and friends. All becaue she felt dirty, guilty, ashamed, angry, afraid and powerless.



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Out of all the girls who had been pushed into doing something sexual they didn't want to do:


nearly half (44%) had been made to feel guilty for initially saying 'no'


over a quarter (29%) remebered simply being told by the person pushing them that it was the right thing to do


1 in eight were given drink or drugs


1 in nine were concerned that rumours would be spread about them


1 in ten were threatened physically


1 in ten were actually hurt physically


1 in ten were bribed with presents or money

A total of 38% did not speak to anyone about their experience because they wanted to forget about it (30%), because they were either scared or ashamed (10%), or because they simply didn't know who to tell (11%). Of the 60% who did tell, over half preferred to confide in a friend, 4% told a brother/sister, 6% told a parent/carer, and 3% told a teacher

.](From the NSPCC website click on the title for the link)